Goodness Me! and Bucket Lists.

Goodness me!  I don’t know what to say tonight! So I think I am just going to talk about things I would like to do before I die! I was thinking about my bucket list this weekend so here it is:

-Go to Europe
-Go Scuba Diving
-Go sky diving
(so this is how most buckets lists start, right?! lol)
-Meet a famous person(done!)
-Go to L.A.
-Record a song, i have been told i can sing.
-Ride in a taxi
-Own a expensive pair of shoes
-Go on a road trip
-Donate my hair for Wigs
-Do the Walk to End Breast Cancer in memory of my mom and aunt bonnie (done!)
-Own a motorcycle
-Start my own business
-Egg something
-Help build a house- anywhere in the world, for a good cause!
-Swim with dolphins
-Make up my own recipe
-Go to Hawaii
-Have a photo published
-Get married
-Go on a blind date (unless i find the man i am to marry first, then no blind date)
-Make a thanksgiving meal
-Go on a missions trip to Africa
-Have a tomato fight
-Submit one of my pictures to be on a Jones Bottle
-Graduate College
-Climb a mountain….nothing major though.. i am accident prone
-See the Hollywood walk of fame (thats what its called right?!)
-Go to NYC….i don't even need to shop, i just want to take pictures....
(pretty much i just want to travel)
-Ride on a Zip Line… through a jungle maybe?!
-Marry Rich… so i can do all of this!! okay, that was a joke!
-Go on a trip with just the girls in my family!!!
-make jam

-go back to Honduras

well it’s a start!  Have a great night!

miss madison and me

i had the honor of getting to do a wee bit of a portrait session of my little sister madsion! it was a lot of fun!! here are a few of the photos .... and to check out the rest head to :

http://www.flickr.com/photos/katehahnphotography

and let me know what you think!! <3

my mom and carrying on her legacy

I miss my mom. I miss waking up in the morning, and just seeing her there. I miss her laugh. I miss her heart. I miss everything about her, the good and the bad. Some days I think its so unfair that I only knew my mother for 11 ¾ years and others get to see their parents make it to their 90^th birthday.  Some days I am selfish like that. But I know that God has a plan and a reason for everything, and I trust in that.

For those who don’t know and are completely confused on what I am talking about, I lost my mom to cancer 10 ½ years ago. I was almost 12 when she passed away, she was 32. I was the oldest of the four kids, and madison was the youngest, she was 2. Poor sweet one, she does not remember my mom. What she knows about her, is what she has been told by us, and see in family videos. What really hurts about it is, she looks just like my mom, and has some of her character traits. Madison is carrying on a legacy of a woman she hardly knew. Mom was so scared that Madison would forget her, so scared, but we promised to help her know mom. I am really trying to keep up that promise.

I was reminded of that promise today, while I was doing Madison’s hair and watching tv this afternoon, when I made a comment about how I am not a good driver when I have to back up, and how I must get it from mom. And the look that came across Madison’s face but priceless, like she had unlocked a hidden treasure, she learned something new about mom. Mom could not back up a car very well. She has a tendency of running into things! Ha! The random memories that hit you sometimes! I really try to bring up mom as much as possible with Madison and tell her as much as I remember about mom as I can. 

I LOVE YOU MOM! And do I ever miss you. We all do.

God and change.

I have always been a dreamer. Full of ideas, dream and aspirations.

Then fears, worry and self doubt takes over.

I then feel weak, and erase my ideas, count out my dreams and forfeit my aspirations.

I hate that about myself. I am way too critical about myself.

This year is my year of change. It’s a big year for me.

First thing that I am working on is my relationship with God.

I honestly love Him with all my heart. Without Him in my life I don’t know where I would be. I don’t even want to begin to think about it.

But I have allowed myself to believe that I knew better then Him. I took the reins in my life, and I walked away from Him.

It was the stupidest move in my life.

It got me nowhere. All it got me was regret.

I’m so sick of my selfish lifestyle.

This year, I have given my life fully over to Him.

I honestly can’t wait to see where this year and the years to follow.

Again, I don’t know who reads this, or if anyone reads this (its really just a way for me to vent) but if you pray, please pray for me. And please! Feel free to email me, encourage me, and give me a criticism when you see fit.  

Please.

Lord, continue to do a work in me.

Use me Lord. Make me into the woman you want me to be. Continue to be my guiding light.

I don’t know where this year will take me, who I will meet and what I will be faced with. But I do know that I serve an amazing God, and He has a great plan for me, and I trust in that plan.  I want to bring God the glory. I love you Lord. Use me.

random facts and a few good laughs.

Well. Most of my recent posts have been me ranting and venting.  So today is random facts about Kate. 

     I have blue eyes and small teeth.

     I have a laugh that is loud, but has also heard that it's contagious.

     I am stubborn and very independent.

     I love people.

     I wear my heart on my sleeve and I usually get hurt because of it.

     I love movie nights! In sweatpants and wrapped in a comfy blanket.

     I am accident-prone.

     I am currently trying to loose weight. 94 pounds to be exact! I have already lost 22 pounds, and I am so proud of myself!

     I really don’t enjoy being touched.  This may be a problem in my future relationships.

     I have very strong beliefs and morals. Jesus is my Lord and Savior, I owe my life to him.  I have morals because of how I was raised and my own personal convictions. 

     I enjoy meeting new people and getting to know them.

     I have a really hard time trusting people.

     I hate cancer.

     I am a truly unique person.

     I try to see the beauty in the simplest things and the humor in everything.

     I enjoy a good laugh.

     I love random dance parties.

And that’s all for this week! :) have an amazing weekend!

family and babies.

 Oh goodness me! I am heading home this weekend to see my family!! My family is so important to me…. They are such an important part of my life. I have a big family, I am the oldest of 7 kids, its so much fun. Oh and my little sister is married, so her husband is adding to the numbers (he’s such a great guy!) and they are pregnant with their first child. They are having a boy! I cannot wait to me an aunt! I am already spoiling little man, but that’s my job right! Heck yeah! I have been blessed with such am amazing family. I know some people are not nearly as fortunate as I am, so I am very thankful! Don’t get me wrong, I know my family is not perfect, no family is. I could go on forever about them, but I won’t… I will tell you all about them another night…. I am just plain tuckered out tonight! Goodnight. (I really don’t know if people even read this, its ok if no one does, I do this to clear my head, but if you are reading, let me know! I am interested to know who you are and I want to thank you.)

some of us.... little bro, bro in law,sister,sister... and well me... being well, me! <3

ruts and conversations

Oh goodness me. I am in such a rut. So I prayed.

Tonight I had a really great conversation with God. I am unsure of where and what I should be doing right now. I longing for His guidance. I am finding it hard right in terms of being a single 22 year old girl/woman/lady!? (i never know what term to refer to myself as)  People think you need to be with someone. Why is that? Is it wrong for me to be single? I honestly don’t think it is. I am still young, I have plenty of time for marriage. Yes, I would love to get married one day, to the most amazing man, the man God made just for me, I can’t wait for that day, but that day is not today. I have not met him yet, for…. Okay, maybe I have, I really have no idea, I just know that he is not a part of my life right now. Enough about dating…sheesh Kate, focus. Okay, tonight I asked God to show me where I need to go next, what my next steps are, and I just Him my life. I want to walk in His guidance, and trust in Him. God does not only hold the  road map of my life, He is now sitting in the drivers seat of my life as well! I’m in the passengers seat, buckled in tight because I am in for the ride of my life, and I am pumped.

Now I need to learn to have patience… Lord, help me with that. I trust you Father.

*sigh* 

until tomorrow…

YOU are the potter and I am the clay.

bloggin'......

my valleys and my thank yous

Life for me lately has not been the easiest. I have never felt so weak, down trodden and exhausted ever in my life. I have really felt lost, and alone even though I know that I am surrounded by people that love me. I feel that I need to keep my issues to myself and not burden anyone else with my problems. I have felt so alone lately and lost that truly did not know who to turn to. I started to feel that I am loosing who I am as a person, and I started to fear that I would loose myself as a photographer, as well.  So one night a couple of weeks ago, I turned to music. Music has always played a big part of my life, and I have always found music that “spoke to me” or “was true to my life/feelings” but when I came across The Co and their current album, I have never felt so safe and understood within music. I know that may sound strange, but let me explain myself. I have always felt that the things I go through are things that no one else goes through. I have felt that I have been misunderstood as a person and as an artist. I pour my heart into what I do as a photographer, and I have finally hit a point where I can be real in what I do, I can be Kate and there is no reason for me to be ashamed of it. I can feel within The Co’s music that they have literally poured their heart into their songs, they are real, they are passionate and they do not apologize for being themselves. I have been so encouraged by their songs and I know I will never be able to tell them how much their music has meant to me or how much of an impact it has had on me and my, but all I can so is say thank you….so…. Thank you. I have their album on repeat for the past three weeks, and their music still continues to encourage me. I am going to overcome this valley, continue climbing that mountain and be great. God has given me life, given me a gift and given me a heart for people and He will continue to give me the strength and the grace to continue on, because He never gives us more then we can handle. I sure do serve a great God.  1 Cor. 10:13 “No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it.”

check out The Co.... http://www.youtube.com/thecomusic