God and change.

I have always been a dreamer. Full of ideas, dream and aspirations.

Then fears, worry and self doubt takes over.

I then feel weak, and erase my ideas, count out my dreams and forfeit my aspirations.

I hate that about myself. I am way too critical about myself.

This year is my year of change. It’s a big year for me.

First thing that I am working on is my relationship with God.

I honestly love Him with all my heart. Without Him in my life I don’t know where I would be. I don’t even want to begin to think about it.

But I have allowed myself to believe that I knew better then Him. I took the reins in my life, and I walked away from Him.

It was the stupidest move in my life.

It got me nowhere. All it got me was regret.

I’m so sick of my selfish lifestyle.

This year, I have given my life fully over to Him.

I honestly can’t wait to see where this year and the years to follow.

Again, I don’t know who reads this, or if anyone reads this (its really just a way for me to vent) but if you pray, please pray for me. And please! Feel free to email me, encourage me, and give me a criticism when you see fit.  

Please.

Lord, continue to do a work in me.

Use me Lord. Make me into the woman you want me to be. Continue to be my guiding light.

I don’t know where this year will take me, who I will meet and what I will be faced with. But I do know that I serve an amazing God, and He has a great plan for me, and I trust in that plan.  I want to bring God the glory. I love you Lord. Use me.