some rambles. and some pictures.

hey!!

i really how your week has been going great! i just thought that I'd say hi (to who ever reads this!) the past few months have been really hard and yet such a growing time. i have been pushed to my breaking point on more then one occasion and yet, by the grace and help of God, and those He has brought into my life, i have made it through the trials and have learned from them and grown. He is such a great God. i just wanted to remind you all that He is there. and He loves YOU even when you don't love yourself. remember that!

Now! here are some pictures of my cousin brittany and her boyfriend mike... just took them this weekend!! enjoy!!!

-k <3

shoots and me.

i have been doing a lot of shooting these past weeks and not so much writing... im sorry.

so tonight i am just going to upload some pictures of what i have been doing lately! enjoy! <3

my beautiful little sister

isn't she just so sweet!

lex and bolts nose! lol

pretty miss d.

tea,

wee tea party.

oh and that's just me!

jacq and snow covered fields

this is jacq. and she is quite the sport. she willingly got into this wedding dress and fur coat (along with long johns and winter boots) and went out into this random field and shot for a few hours! i think these turned out just great! and today was just what i needed! thank again jacq!

Diana and flour

these are a few out takes from a shoot I did for school this past semester. We were to use flour in a creative way...and this is what I came up with!! enjoy!

thanks again, Diana! <3

We are each gifted in a unique and important way. It is our privilege and our adventure to discover our own special light.  ~Mary Dunbar

Don't Underestimate and Adele

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rYEDA3JcQqw

roses and my father

daughters-john mayer.

my dad came and visited me today and brought along some beautiful roses for me!! thank you dad! i love you!!!

Dest and Kate

Best friends:

Best Friends are very special people in your life. They are the first people you think about when you make plans. They are the first people you go to when you need someone to talk to. You will phone them up just to talk about nothing, or the most important things in your life. When you’re sad they will try their hardest to cheer you up. They give the best hugs in the world! They are the shoulder to cry on, because you know that they truly care about you. In most cases they would take a bullet for you, coz it would be too painful to watch you get hurt. (Urban Dictionary)

All my life, I had friends. I was pretty close to some at times, not one of them were good enough friends that I felt I could truly and honestly be myself with, because I was scared of being judged. I have always been careful with people in terms of trust. I have been hurt many time in my life by people I thought I could trust, my dad says its because I wear my heart on my sleeve and care too much about people- is that really a fault though? So over time I have put up a wall around me, not letting anyone in, guarding myself.

This all changed when I met Destiny. This girl has changed my life. She has been the one person who has cared enough to take the time to try to tear down my walls, and slowly but surly she is doing it. People often refer to me as “special” – I honestly prefer “unique” but lets not get technical- mainly because I am different. I see life in a way that from what I understand, is a lot different from how others see the world. Most people don’t understand me, and don’t try to. Destiny tried to. She’s actually a lot like me in that way, we are both rather unique.  Around her I say what I want to say, stupid, random, off the wall, anything I want to, and yes she may laugh because what I say may be the weirdest thing ever, but that’s me, and she understands person. And man, is she ever funny! When we are together, there is no telling what is going to be going on. I honestly at times wonder what people are thinking when they are standing near Destiny and I in a store or waiting in line somewhere, because our conversations are quite interesting to say the least! Ha! And I don’t apologize at all for it! She is also my slap in the face. She is the one to comfort me on a bad day, she lets me speak my mind, and then she pretty much tells me to snap out of it, encourages me to stand up and to carry on. She has been the most amazing friend I have ever had. She is amazing to me. She has such a great talent, a bright future (that she somehow does not see), she has the most kind and generous heart and most of all the best sense of humor ever. I honestly thank God everyday for her! I don’t know how I would have gotten through school without her!

Destiny, thank you for being such an amazing friend. Thanks for being there for me!  oh and thanks for putting up with all of my weird (creative) ideas! and thanks for enjoying my quirky personally and weird passion for the diva song! (or at least putting up with all that craziness) I will never ever be able to ever put into words, or find a way to thank you for all the things you have done for me. All I know to do is say thank you. So dear d. wiens…THANK YOU! Nnnarrrr!

I can’t for the upcoming years of shanagins and adventures. Its going to be a blast! Oh and people of Banana Bender… brace yourself dest and kate are coming your way! haha

 

I miss you dest! pew pew!

Goodness Me! and Bucket Lists.

Goodness me!  I don’t know what to say tonight! So I think I am just going to talk about things I would like to do before I die! I was thinking about my bucket list this weekend so here it is:

-Go to Europe
-Go Scuba Diving
-Go sky diving
(so this is how most buckets lists start, right?! lol)
-Meet a famous person(done!)
-Go to L.A.
-Record a song, i have been told i can sing.
-Ride in a taxi
-Own a expensive pair of shoes
-Go on a road trip
-Donate my hair for Wigs
-Do the Walk to End Breast Cancer in memory of my mom and aunt bonnie (done!)
-Own a motorcycle
-Start my own business
-Egg something
-Help build a house- anywhere in the world, for a good cause!
-Swim with dolphins
-Make up my own recipe
-Go to Hawaii
-Have a photo published
-Get married
-Go on a blind date (unless i find the man i am to marry first, then no blind date)
-Make a thanksgiving meal
-Go on a missions trip to Africa
-Have a tomato fight
-Submit one of my pictures to be on a Jones Bottle
-Graduate College
-Climb a mountain….nothing major though.. i am accident prone
-See the Hollywood walk of fame (thats what its called right?!)
-Go to NYC….i don't even need to shop, i just want to take pictures....
(pretty much i just want to travel)
-Ride on a Zip Line… through a jungle maybe?!
-Marry Rich… so i can do all of this!! okay, that was a joke!
-Go on a trip with just the girls in my family!!!
-make jam

-go back to Honduras

well it’s a start!  Have a great night!

miss madison and me

i had the honor of getting to do a wee bit of a portrait session of my little sister madsion! it was a lot of fun!! here are a few of the photos .... and to check out the rest head to :

http://www.flickr.com/photos/katehahnphotography

and let me know what you think!! <3

my mom and carrying on her legacy

I miss my mom. I miss waking up in the morning, and just seeing her there. I miss her laugh. I miss her heart. I miss everything about her, the good and the bad. Some days I think its so unfair that I only knew my mother for 11 ¾ years and others get to see their parents make it to their 90^th birthday.  Some days I am selfish like that. But I know that God has a plan and a reason for everything, and I trust in that.

For those who don’t know and are completely confused on what I am talking about, I lost my mom to cancer 10 ½ years ago. I was almost 12 when she passed away, she was 32. I was the oldest of the four kids, and madison was the youngest, she was 2. Poor sweet one, she does not remember my mom. What she knows about her, is what she has been told by us, and see in family videos. What really hurts about it is, she looks just like my mom, and has some of her character traits. Madison is carrying on a legacy of a woman she hardly knew. Mom was so scared that Madison would forget her, so scared, but we promised to help her know mom. I am really trying to keep up that promise.

I was reminded of that promise today, while I was doing Madison’s hair and watching tv this afternoon, when I made a comment about how I am not a good driver when I have to back up, and how I must get it from mom. And the look that came across Madison’s face but priceless, like she had unlocked a hidden treasure, she learned something new about mom. Mom could not back up a car very well. She has a tendency of running into things! Ha! The random memories that hit you sometimes! I really try to bring up mom as much as possible with Madison and tell her as much as I remember about mom as I can. 

I LOVE YOU MOM! And do I ever miss you. We all do.

God and change.

I have always been a dreamer. Full of ideas, dream and aspirations.

Then fears, worry and self doubt takes over.

I then feel weak, and erase my ideas, count out my dreams and forfeit my aspirations.

I hate that about myself. I am way too critical about myself.

This year is my year of change. It’s a big year for me.

First thing that I am working on is my relationship with God.

I honestly love Him with all my heart. Without Him in my life I don’t know where I would be. I don’t even want to begin to think about it.

But I have allowed myself to believe that I knew better then Him. I took the reins in my life, and I walked away from Him.

It was the stupidest move in my life.

It got me nowhere. All it got me was regret.

I’m so sick of my selfish lifestyle.

This year, I have given my life fully over to Him.

I honestly can’t wait to see where this year and the years to follow.

Again, I don’t know who reads this, or if anyone reads this (its really just a way for me to vent) but if you pray, please pray for me. And please! Feel free to email me, encourage me, and give me a criticism when you see fit.  

Please.

Lord, continue to do a work in me.

Use me Lord. Make me into the woman you want me to be. Continue to be my guiding light.

I don’t know where this year will take me, who I will meet and what I will be faced with. But I do know that I serve an amazing God, and He has a great plan for me, and I trust in that plan.  I want to bring God the glory. I love you Lord. Use me.

random facts and a few good laughs.

Well. Most of my recent posts have been me ranting and venting.  So today is random facts about Kate. 

     I have blue eyes and small teeth.

     I have a laugh that is loud, but has also heard that it's contagious.

     I am stubborn and very independent.

     I love people.

     I wear my heart on my sleeve and I usually get hurt because of it.

     I love movie nights! In sweatpants and wrapped in a comfy blanket.

     I am accident-prone.

     I am currently trying to loose weight. 94 pounds to be exact! I have already lost 22 pounds, and I am so proud of myself!

     I really don’t enjoy being touched.  This may be a problem in my future relationships.

     I have very strong beliefs and morals. Jesus is my Lord and Savior, I owe my life to him.  I have morals because of how I was raised and my own personal convictions. 

     I enjoy meeting new people and getting to know them.

     I have a really hard time trusting people.

     I hate cancer.

     I am a truly unique person.

     I try to see the beauty in the simplest things and the humor in everything.

     I enjoy a good laugh.

     I love random dance parties.

And that’s all for this week! :) have an amazing weekend!

family and babies.

 Oh goodness me! I am heading home this weekend to see my family!! My family is so important to me…. They are such an important part of my life. I have a big family, I am the oldest of 7 kids, its so much fun. Oh and my little sister is married, so her husband is adding to the numbers (he’s such a great guy!) and they are pregnant with their first child. They are having a boy! I cannot wait to me an aunt! I am already spoiling little man, but that’s my job right! Heck yeah! I have been blessed with such am amazing family. I know some people are not nearly as fortunate as I am, so I am very thankful! Don’t get me wrong, I know my family is not perfect, no family is. I could go on forever about them, but I won’t… I will tell you all about them another night…. I am just plain tuckered out tonight! Goodnight. (I really don’t know if people even read this, its ok if no one does, I do this to clear my head, but if you are reading, let me know! I am interested to know who you are and I want to thank you.)

some of us.... little bro, bro in law,sister,sister... and well me... being well, me! <3